MISSION IMPOSSIBLE + Earl Grey

Well, I guess it has been a time I didn’t put my time on my blog-writing. Throughout the whole week, I have been doing a meaningful thing for God and for my church brothers and sisters also. I am as a MISSION IMPOSSIBLE planner/organizer. It sounds really thrilling to me, thou as an observer and planner only! Actually during my time in penang, I have had a hope for an opportunity to serve my brothers and sisters, The Rock&Honey via some planned activity! Haha! Again, I always said, God is an awesome God. He always listen to my heart murmurs! Haha!

Just now, around 10 p.m., I went to play a module game with my friend as my driver, let’s call him Dan. It’s 10 at night because after A.N.T.S at 9.30 p.m. then Dan fetched me, and then I told him my plan, what do I expect… Then, Dan just said: “Let’s try!” Haha! He is, actually very smart, he managed to find me everything. In my game list, I need to find 10 clinics, 2 Mobil, 4 Shell, 2 open-24-hours Nasi Kandar Restaurants, fountain at the Telekom Tower, the Tanjung Charli tower and also 4 churches. He is a road-smart! Hehe!
(Well, till here, guess you guys manage to think of what my M.I is about!!! Haha! )

Well, what written above is part of what I have been doing/busying for the long week when my dear, dear friends are working hard on their books! A week before, I was always finding opportunity to go out to Secret Recipe, City Plaza, to online. Every time, I would order the same drink, a pot of Earl Grey. Cake, cake would be different, ‘cause I’m finding a flavor which is compatible to my much loved English black tea. The smell of Earl Grey is soft and gentle. But some people said it smells like detergent! What a description for the tea. Much thanks for my special friend, who introduce to me Earl Grey.*hug* Well, adding milk is not good at all (for me). I prefer a without sugar, ‘kosong’ one. But if you add a sachet of Equal sugar, it’ll be too sweet. And therefore, the sweetness will definitely cover up the smell of it in your mouth. I know you guys will question how can we smell the smell in mouth. I’m not good in explain. If you are willing to spend RM6.90 for a pot of Organic Tea in whichever Secret Recipe outlets then you might understand. Haha! Oh ya, the smell is too soft that after the second refill, the tea will become more tasteless. But you can take up the cap of the pot and refresh your mind with the smell on it. You may feel that smelling people’s tea pot cap in public is embarrassing and weird. But my point of view is that it’s a good thing for us to find the right pot of tea to enjoy and yet, indulge. Sometimes, something can turn to be an enjoyment, unexpectedly. =)
Have you find the right cup of tea? =)
However, always think twice about what I said. Last time I introduced to my friend the Green Tea ice cream at Gurney Plaza basement, they made this conclusion. They said: “Next time should think twice whatever I introduce them.” It didn’t hurt me nor made me feel embarrass, because I know that all sorts of people will have all sorts of preferences and tastes. I know some people who like to say I have bad taste. I’m not so cool and steady to never mind what all sayings. Some, I can really being cool. Some, maybe just could hardly forget after that...No hard feeling, for sure.

A Peaceful Mind Now

The storm finally left me alone, promising a good-weather livings now. Yes, I have seen life. Not all, part of real, authentic life, I would say. Life is still unchanged, it’s still a miserable one. When things don’t go your way and etc…

During those hard times, I cried out to my faithful friend, an unconditional-lover, my Jehovah, in my prayer, I prayed in tears that God will continuously carry me on, when I was so week, and feeling so sad badly… I said this too: “God, please make me humble…please make me a humble servant…be a servant-hearted one…God, I have been suffered from nightmares, all sorts of dreams…please take away them according your divine will and give me good rest every night.”

‘Our God is an awesome God. He reigns from the heaven above.
With wisdom, power and love. Our God is an awesome God.’

In such an amount of words, God shows His sovereignty! After that night onwards, I did not dream of anything already, especially those would make me stressed up in the early morning ones. God took away my burdens. And He has granted me with more blessings. =)

I feel relief then. I manage to accept the cruel facts of reality. I manage to see things in different facets and perceptions. I remember that night when I looked across those photos taken before, I smiled. When he asked me that how come suddenly I have the mood to do so, then I replied saying that I’ve released, I’ve looked widely already…Haha, it was a moment I treasured in mind. It seems like a victory. A victory that I won by God’s grace. 100% by God’s grace. Salvation, and salvation too!

When all those ‘disasters’ happened in lately 2 months, although I remember to pray, but I have forgotten God’s salvation, from the blood shed from the cross.

Jabez prays that “ bless me, increase my territory, deliver me from the evil that cause me pain.” It’s in 1 Chronicles. God answer Jabez’s prayer. I did the same prayer too. I believe that God is the most faithful one in my life. I trust Him. The Scripture says that God will never forsake me even the world hates you. I have the right same feeling too. For once, I felt that God has forsaken me, has left me alone, maybe due to my disobedience.

I believe that God is working in me now, He has His purpose within me. I believe that God is preparing me now to become a nurse. See, a nurse need to be very tolerant, patient, loving-hearted and servant-hearted one. I have never been a really Doer of Words. I do not like to care for people too much…And now, He wants me to love my enemies as if my family. He lectures me with the word ‘Patience.’ Be cool and independent is what I have been pursuing. I enjoy do things alone sometimes. And it’s never a pathetic ones nor a lone ranger. Like some of my friends know, they know I used to go to GSC alone, eat alone, walk around Gurney Plaza, and go online alone… I hope I can go to Langkawi next week. Yea, alone, I do not mind what. I have my uncle there. What I need is a map, a auto-car with some money! Then, there I go.
Oh, penguins! Pingu , pingu, wait for me~

Since I’m a single teenage now, whatever I do, I do not need to report to my partner, I do not need their permission, I just need my parents’ one. Why can’t I do something for myself when I’m single? Why can’t I make use of the freedom I have now? Why can’t I enjoy my single life now? Why can’t I discover what criteria’s I need for my life partner while I’m single?

Enjoy, enjoy and enjoy...Enjoying my life now.
On top of that, I want to unveil my deepest desires for my future. Through my life now, I want to know what I really need to pursue, what is my goals. Living life, heading our life-goals help us live our life to the fullest!

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