let's visit my house household antiques~

ya,don't blink your eyes.the microwave in my kitchen is above my head one.the black supportive rack is created by my dad.last time bought this,then grandma said no place to put,so dad hung it on the wall!

my grandma use charcoal to boil good soup.only stove which use charcoals produce best soup.to make the charcoals burn is time-consuming,but the tastes are there,never lack of.in fact,my grandma insists on her method of cooking.so,i have seen charcoals before i know what is Barbeque~

do you all know who made all this?taa-da~my grandpa!from the above,it is to scratch fish's scales.2nd and 3rd are knives!home-made oh!aged 30 year and above^^

haha,guess what is it!!

it is a wooden stick made of guava's trunk.c'mon,cecilia's house doesn't use knife to open DURIAN,my dad always use this to open!very work,very 'geng'!
aged 40 years above,my grandma said!

you know,my family doesn't use polymer container to store water lah~

this one!!!!it produces no foul odour of the water oh!unlike nowadays containers.

this is what we called 'tembaga',so nice!antique!i'm sure you have not seen/use it.i use it for my 19-year of life!if your house have it,do leave me a message,k?i'm serious!

this is the metal rack made by my father which mentioned in last post.made of all these bars~long-lasting.efficient for small storeroom.space-saving,cost-saving.simple and neat~

this is the oldest properties in my house.a bamboo babychair since my first uncle was born.he is 55 now.bought by my grandma's grandma.(something like that)someone whom i shall call 'yi po.'my grandma said first children must buy a bamboo chair,a swing(buaian,in BM),a pair of shoes and 3 sets of clothing.as you guys can see,it has 2 ways to function.this babychair has been used by everyone in my family.3 of us sat inside before,and my mom fed us.now,the function of this bamboo-made stuff is to stack newspapers!haha~no more kids now.

love of a daughter's 1st man

daughters' first man in her life-father,dad,daddy,papa,lo dao,pa...

it's Fathers' day yesterday,i didn't know how to buy him presents,i just slipped RM 100 into his wallet when he had slept and when my mom went to bathroom.

in the afternon,mom:''i paid for everything,you should give me money.don't need to give him!..."
me:"you wait la,your birthday not yet......"

talk about my father,i call him 'papa',same as how my 2 sisters call him.he is a supervisor in a Kilang kicap named THYE WOH,where my Ho's family came from,a place where used to be a big community,where a few families stayed together and etc .my grandfather worked in the factory and after finish studying in Taiwan for some time,my dad succeeded the post.he is also a technician who is capable in repairing many many appliances!

dad and mom get married in 1987 then i came to the world the next year =)
i'm his first daughter,first precious 'pearl'(i suppose I AM!).when i was small,at young age,i went on to the roof of my house,of course i didn't climb the staircases la!my uncle brought me up and i sat there to see my dad repairing something.(ya,something and i have forgotten what was it!!)i had the photos,i hope i have a scanner and SHOW to you guys readers~

i have never kissed him nor said "I love You!" first of all,the factor is living in a conservative family where feelings are not shown in words and quarrels,argues happened a lot in my childhood.secondly,might be my reluctances to show it.

however,deep in my memories folder,i still remember that dad hugged me to sleep when i was a little girl,when amy has not born yet...how did it happen?haha...'cause i sneaked in between my mom and dad when i was supposed to sleep on the floor!

i have seen my friends who can simply plant a kiss on their fathers' cheeks or hug them or say "love you" over the phone~
somehow,i see it as a loss and i want to compensate it in the relationship with my bf/husband-my 2nd man in my life.it is not selfish.it's just a method of loving.(guess there'll be story continued on this statement.)

i don't know why,my family is very strict on me.you know,i still attending school in the morning when i got mumps,aged 12.after teachers finish teachings,i still need to attend school even though not much people attend.especially my dad.he insisted that i must go to school no matter what.looking at amy,after her PMR,she had started her holiday almost 3 weeks earlier!he never said anything.ya,besides amy has more fellowships with her buddies compared to my age time.i can never go to friends' house to play.actually i had more scoldings than amy and ai wen.even though i didn't finish my rice,i get scolded as well.i mean last time,not now la.too many things to be mentioned,so better keep it short!haha =D

talking about his capability,he knows a lot of things but because of his personality,his skills are not so well used in his career to make big success.he is able to repair washing machines,do wiring,creates a big racks in my house in the store room.he can replace a punctured type not more than 10 minutes,very fast!!!dad always do free wiring for church.he used to check the church outdoor huge Christmas tree's lights wiring to make sure that no leakage of electricity which can cause death.he used some planks and 4 wheels to make a little trolley for my mom's staffs to move heavy loads of plates in restaurant.initially they bent their waists and pushed for a distance.now they use the trolley.put the big basin on it,use a metal stick which has a hook at one end,then pull.

last time in secondary school,we need to pass up some electronic projects for marks.in Kemahiran Hidup,we were required to do some carpenter's job.do some racks with a few pieces of woods,'gosok' with the 'kertas pasir'......my dad did for me and amy.mine still preserved unchange until today.amy said her project is much durable than her friends one.some cant even lasts for half a year.my house has the back part as my dad's corner for all his gadgets and appliances.i didn't need to use 'kertas pasir' to 'gosok' the wood for a curve just like how my friends did for weeks.my dad use a little appliance,with a rounded,sharp,spinning 'stuff' to make curves on the sharp end of the wood!it's done within minutes!*laugh out loud in VICTORY*

me:''papa,here need to have 2 curves,teacher said one...my friends they use 'kertas pasir' to 'gosok'..."
he:"no time already...i do for you......"
(zzz...eeek...zzzzzz....eek eeek...)(machine's sound on the wood.)
then i had one!

besides,my electronic projects are very work.my dad taught me how to 'pateri' nicely so that the electric can go thru the board and makes the LED to lit!last time got a neighbour,she took the whole thing to ask my dad to 'pateri'.it was for exam1,not merely 10 marks

in my childhood,i was lost in a supermarket.it is still here in the town,named KEDAH supermarket.i went to play myself and hide myself in between the cozy dresses.then suddenly i found no one i familiar with.suddenly i saw someone squatted down at the staircase,opened his big arm for me to run towards!in my memory,it was my father.

when KFC launced a promotion for kids meal,my dad brought me to eat KFC.and then i got a set of lunch box.it was yellow colour.a box with a bottle and a food container inside.i used it to bring food to kindergarten!the next day,he bought a blue one for little amy,i remember!!!

the very first time i pray to God was for my father when he suddenly hospitalised for some illness which i am not sure,still.
"God,i don't wan to lose my father yet 'cause i dont want to be fatherless......"
that day,mom drove him to GH.dad was drove home from somewhere,he felt not well during working,he drove all the way back home......i was very very yound that time,probably 7/8 years old.not remember how old exactly.

he always talk about Taiwan.since small,he used to say,"last time,i...,i...,i...,here...,there...".i suppose he likes Taiwan and the food there.i ever wonder why i don't have a taiwanese mom.my ex has a taiwanese mom who cook good food!everytime he watches the Taiwan's shows which talk about their cultures and food/places,he would start his stories!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my uncle(his brother) would scold him,saying your time is 20+ years ago...blah,blah,blah...

hey peeps,be my witness here,when i have money,i'll sponsor dad to go Taiwan with mom.i know he wants to go there for another time in his life.i want mom to go 'cause i think she should know the place where my dad had been before in his youth.

there are a lot of little stories scene behind my family and my parents,and dad.
on the day i baptise,20th April of 2003,Easter Day,
to my pastor,dad:''...2nd generation..."
pastor:"good,good,good...there will be generations to come..."

**dad was the first believer baptised by Pastor Pang.and dad is the longest member in church Pastor Pang built.
(ivan&evan,my dad said pastor Pang founded True Light Baptist Church as well oh!!!!)

this is a small portable table made by dad for me when i first time take part in outdoor colouring contest!purposely for my colouring contest!i always sit higher than other kids,'cause my table is higher than their ABC's table.
so,envy??

his working corner,lots of rubbish,my mom said!


this is a toolbox he made himself for his BOSCH drill!i saw how he made it when i was small!

amy's KH project!still standing!!!!!!!!her teacher praised HER!(actually it's my dad who did everything la~)

Yeah Yeah,Yippy Yippy!!!

so happy! i just get to know my result online from my tutor!
here we go~~

my terminal exam average is 79.8% and i'm the 2nd.basically i exchange with a girl our position this time. no doubt,she did very very well this time.

overall,include test 1 and test 2 and the last one,i got #1 with the average of 83.2%.it is the lowest average compared with the senior's groups......

thanks God anyway,because i truly had a lot of problems during that time.people fail me but i am still not alone =)

later,going to church for BBQ oh! with my little kids and some teens. haha...

i was in Holiday in Batu Ferringghi~

happy!happy! marvellous time spent together.it's taken in front of The Ship Restaurant.

nice??? super nice to me!c'on,it's taken personally,not by me,of course!

a cake from MAnilla'sPlace.nice and tasty~

HAPPY FRIENDS on the THE SHIP'S dining table!

a little boy cladded in his very cute swimming suit.
why little boys all wear like this??????

a good pixel camera.the balloon is flying high!(is it called as a 'balloon'??)

me,in the lobby


more photos upload!

i do not play friendster.i don't favor it.so,blogspot.com is my choice~~
haha...
oh ya,not to forget.all those photos are taken by a very professional photographer,Mr.VITO_NG.all the appreciations contribute for him.
*a lot of thanks*

life today

oh yea,this time is my last posting,the forth in my semester 1.

currently in NWA.A female medical ward.



most of the patients are old age,expected.and old women are more cute and adorable compared to old men.i would simply go and find one granny to chat with them.it's great.

working on shift is really tiring.trust me when i say tiring and i mean it.walking around,up and down for 8 hours might cause my subcutaneous layer of my heel to be thinned out next time......

today i was on morning shift.as usual,wake up at 5a.m,then take breakfast at 6a.m,sign in by 6.15 a.m.
it's part of my life.working and studying at the same time.sometimes,we have theory input,meaning go to class and study for 2 or 3 weeks,then go for clinical practises after that.
i believe that my circadian rhythm has changed/modified.haha......you know,it's hard for me initially.
it seems that i'm able to accommodate now,seeing that i'm right now online at Prangin Mall,STARBUCKS. =) (just finished a sugarred doughnut sprinkled with chocolate and cinnamon's powder and a mocha ice-blended with whip)

it is 7.35pm now.there are 60 minutes left for me before i leave for home,i mean hostel!
it's the last bus for me at 8.30p.m.
morning shift again tomorrow,but it's alright.i still have enough time. *giggle*

just now,before i came out,i was having to know that our M'sia Mr. PM is getting married this saturday. the soon-to-be First Lady is a housekeeper in PM's residents.
it's a shocking news to me,thou it is so none-of-my-business.however,my emotions/reactions show that i choose to involve myself in this 'business.'
know why?

i couldn't understand.one moment people cry for the loss of a spouse.the moment next going to be happily-ever-after with another woman.

i couldn't understand lah~~~

can you guys,readers understand?

what love has become?
something easy to get and allow you to touch-and-go?
something you can call upon when your laptop need helps?
something that enable you to lean against when your heart cries?
or,
something which can dissolve your loneliness?

wow,it seems like i've bored and stressed out with love.
well,i think i'm not.'cause the Bible said We love because God first loved us.love is still within me because God always love me,and being good to me!in my life,my study and everything.
haha...

my tutor happened to know that i am so ABLE to take bus,and come to prangin mall,and online for hours.she said I'M BOLD!
and i sort of agree and happy for that.i take it as a compliment,a postive one.'cause i think God has granted me with this kind of boldness which enable me to live independantly,seeing His grace and goodness everyday.it has been in me since last year.when i stayed in Pulau Tikus.i used to do this for myself.i used to do things for myself.i can,and i enjoy doing it.

to put it in a nutshell,the saying goes like this:
live your life fullest for your ownself because your life belongs to God.
remember what Job had say?
God gives and takes away...

undesired long silence

it's so bad that living in the hostel without having the chance to access the Internet freely.
it's boring and not fun!

unable to write my blog,update it,i am also broke in lonely for unable to chat with friends...for my long subsides,me and ah mul actually separated by a lot of stories from each other.one in penang and one in s'pore...

my last few weeks are in a mess. i experienced an array of feelings and deep thoughts.

but God talked with me in each time of my private time with Him.

He said,live by faith.

do the right things instead of being the right person.

there were many bad things came tumbling down......
there was this accusation that seniors warn my friends not to influence me in bad ways...some even commenced in my clothings and actually the problem isn't existing...

i'm tired of explaining myself and dealing with friendship's problems...

unneccesary and effort-wasting.

i think i need to prepare to leave and go back to hostel.will update the next time i can online.

Old friends meeting

it's fun to meet up with 11 of them.

for the purpose of farewel for ah ken,i joined them at holiday inn.

celebrated hooi him's birthday on the beach.

having to see how ah ken look like and behave after drunk!

it is so funny to see him talk phone with another friend who is burning midnight oil for exam,and yet need to entertain a drunken-master!

haha...

it's my very first time to try on BANANA BOAT!

oh yeah...it's crazy.

seeing the 'BANANA' goes on the wave and we are as if riding a horse is feeling good!

having to taste Russian chicken in THE SHIP RESTAURANT is another experience worth for a mention! the environment is good,a bit high class.of course,it's super costly!

ya,we watched movie-"BLADES OF GLORY".it's a comedy which caused us to laugh out loud in the theathre and had most of us tickled pink.

i said most of us,'cause a few guys actually fell asleep due to a long night without sleeping but just drinking and playing cards...

having to see and meet them,i really see changes and differences in each and everyone.a person i always thought as a bad guy becomes a good gentleman.

3 girls become pretty ladies.

some remains the same,still like to take photos.a photo-genic~~

i'm anticipating my coming weekend to go back to Alor Star for 2-week semester break.

i hope i can spend as much time as possible to listen to their stories and happenings.

perhaps,in life,experiencing others' experiences is a free lesson for ourselves.

Living Single-ly

The Bible said,one is better than two.

And God created Adam a company,a helper-Eve.

But why the journey to meeting our own company is so hard.

Waiting for the one and only is not same as buying a pair of jeans or a shirts...the attitude is not try one and decide whether buy it or not...i actually never hold such a intention when it comes to involve in a BGR.

so far,i am still not convinced that living single is better than living with a partner.

true love exists among lovers,i'm sure. and love endures forever by God's works!!

everytime when a relationship comes to an end,a full-stop,i learn.needless to say,this time as well.

i never doubt nor deny the sovereingty of God.

Job said,He can give and take aways...

it was a typical sunday when i didn't expect any unexpected outcome.it's a sudden one.

maybe he is really unready for any serious commitment.maybe call it an end is the best choice out of the worst!!

i cried out loud alone,on the bed.i asked God,why?why so many unpleasant things happen to me at once? why he left me?it's my birthday next week,why i need to celebrate alone,again?

tired,restless,speechless...

i told God i couldn't take the pressures and the stress comes along with my terminal examination...my life was in a deep stress!waiting for me to overcome together or one-by-one...

what are the causative factors? i found no answers.

i hope we still can be friends as usual and he can continue give me some advises over my problems...he is a very calm and unaffeted-by-thunders-or-rains guy whom i could never met again and this appears in both his good and bad list.it's his strength and his weakness as well. i used to be mad of him of being too un-affected,by my angers and sad mood...to him,as if no big deal.

He,as if the one, and as if he could never be the one...

My 19th Birthday

haha...it's me,and my cake! *ta-da*

it's celebrated by my seniors friends at a western restaurant.believe it or not,those big-sized fruit juices are RM 4.90 only!!! kaka~~~

i was really happy and touched by my friends,who celebrate and gave me surprises at night which everyone is studying hardly for the terminal examination that week.

oh yes,my birthday,fell on the exam-tension week,again...never fail for so many years of schooling!

the biggest surprise,must not/never forget to mention,was by my dear friend in Russia!

*drumroll* Mr. Ivan Khoo

haha...i couldn't believe that he really called me all the way from Russia. i couldn't believe he sacrifice for such a me!!he never fail to wish me by sending a postcard!haha...i got my sister to send the card for me from hometown!

let's talk about my feeling over my 19!

hmmm...i miss those days aged only 16 ,17-when i met C.K-celebrated my birthday for me,prepared me home-cook little dish! undeniably,those days are sweet and memorable,unforgettable~

now then,i'm older by age,the way of thinkings and some others aspects as well...needless to mention,i guess...*shy*