e@rl grey's dictionary for ivan

wat mean NWB?

haha...
New-Wing B...

u noe,the hospital is expanding,so we have old wing(old building) and new wing(new building).

in each wing,all the left handside is B.

so,i'm now working in NewWing B...
it's a male ward,with both surgical and medical wards...i at front part,it's a medical ward...



*the smell is unberable!i so dislike!*

p/s.: thanks oh! haha...good result? u noe,pressures lo...

i'm a Christian

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I'm clean living.'"

I'm whispering "I was lost,

Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my share of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

Who received God's good grace, somehow!

love VS. endurance

What is love? What is real love?

People in olden society, their marriage were fixed by their parents.
By matchmaking.
Never met who they are going to marry with, stay together for a lifetime, building up a family together…
Never ever date before.
Never know how the person looks like is.
Never have a choice to choose, besides commit suicide.
Never can predict how the destiny would be.
Never can know how the person behaves in.
And perhaps…
Never get to fall in love for at least once in a lifetime…

But,
How do the loves endure forever?
What makes the love possible?
What makes the married-not-lover-couple get to spend their rest of the lifetime together, with a so-called ‘stranger’?
Is it a love?
Could it be called so?
Is love should be started step by step, in order, in sequence?

Meeting>acquaintance>dating>engagement>marriage

And then it lasts for life…
50 years or more…
40 years…
30 years…
20 years or shorter…
It’s depends~

In 1 Corinthians 13:13 it says, among faith, hope, love. Love is the greatest

Love for all
Love for God
Love for lives

Love for self

God is so good,He is so good....

God is so good to me =)
He has been/ always takes care of me,
Accompanying me during my hard time of studying for tests…
I’m thankful that he leads me on,
Carry me with my burdens,
Lift my soul and my spirit as well…

I got #1 in class this time,
With the average of 90.5
Total marks of 362
Comm.-86%
BNS-88%
BMS I-92%
BMS II-96%

Last but not least, thou not counted,
Moral (Terminal Exam)-87%
So thankful that my moral coursework just needed to be edited once only and I got 26/30

God has given me everything
God answers my prayer
God gave me a more calm spirit, quiet mind…
Thou sometimes I did do some stupid, silly mistakes, but thanks God that those didn’t bring any severe impacts to me, so far…

Talk correctly, wisely at the right time is very important.
With a meaningful conversation can help people
But sarcastic words may influence people’s impression on oneself.

Psalms 23

The Lord is my Shepherd,
I shall not want.

This chapter from The Old Testament has reminded me of God’s sovereignty and abundance.

During one of my daily devotional time,
I came across this once again.

I was refreshed and filled with new faith.

I was under some stresses and pressures; some are eustres, frankly speaking…
I had not been having a peaceful, calm and silent mind.
It seemed that I have to complete so many things by myself.
It seemed that I need to prepare everything, on time.
Before the dateline is arrives.

And then, this night,
I read this from the Daily Bread.
(I do not have a English Bible with me, so I may not be able to copy the whole chapter for reference purpose. If anyone doesn’t mind, please drop in for me! => )

God leads me to the green pasture, the flowing river…
(Something likes that)

It was a lesson to me that in whatever circumstances, conditions, or even when I’m in the battle of mind, struggling with stresses,
I have Jehovah.

His rod comforts me.
He sees my tears.
My broken heart.
My burdens.
My shame.
My weaknesses…

He is being with me.
He fills my cup, overwhelming it…

Yes, He awakens my spirit.
Because of His name,
He leads me on…
On the righteous path.
On the correct way,
On the divine teachings,
On my Christian life…

And therefore,
His name is lifted high.


This Psalms 23,
Remind me of God’s grace and love.
He is always the father for the father-less.

I am not afraid now.
For He’s my shepherd, I am his sheep,
So I shall not want.

Give Thanks

haha...thanks God that He is really good to me,personally.He listened to my prayers,guided me throughout the test2.with the exception of Communication paper,the other 3 papers i have had my results

basic nursing science-22/25(88%)
basic medical science I-23/25(92%)
basic medical science II-24/25(96%)

my BMSII hilang 1 marks just because of the pH of urine.in my mind that time,the figures appeared was 3.5-4.5...which is the pH of blood...i was so mixed up that time.i was simply so proud that time,i thought i remembered clearly about it...haha...

BNS,the first part i got 14.5/15...i asked my tutor why.she said i didn't answer with perfect answer.then i think i'll brush up again...

coming week is last week in class.following week we are going to ward for shift duty again.the posting is still unknown yet.but i so hope that i can go to a male ward,NWB.so that i can overcome my barrier as soon as possible.

30/4 is going home,so happy.

Mom had just back from Beijing when she called me just now.last few days,so sweet of her that she purposely called me from Beijing.just to ask me how am i!!!!then i said i'm good.then she rush to hang off already,saying expensive international call...XD

Sushi Robbery

went to sushi king again.
last day of RM2 bonanza promo...
many customers.waiting for some expensive sushi to be served on the moving belt...
going round and round,circulating to tables and seats...
some tables will be served first,by the moving belt...
when impatient customers can't get their food stuffed inside the stomach,
they will cut queue
the queue of the moving belt...
they will ROB the sushi from the other side...
some 'polite' one,they would rob and smile to u,ask u whether want it or not...


so,today's last battle ended with RM20.30...
9 plates of sushi...without getting to eat scallops sushi and unagi.
*the waitress said scallops out of stock,so we decided to settle the bill.after we paid,about to walk out of the glass door,we saw the 'sifu' serving the scallops sushi onto the running belt...*arghhh...*

Starts and Ends

consequences and process
which one is more important?

which one should take into consideration first?

if the consequence is known as a wrong one,should the process continue?

if the result is unknownly mysterious,will you still go ahead?

in the movie,"KEEPING MUM",rowan atkinson stressed about one quotation.
"God's Mysterious Way."

RM 2 Bonanza

it was a promotion by Sushi King.from 9-12/4.each plate of sushi(rice-based) is only at RM2.for members only.

so,the first day of it,4 of us went to perangin mall.as we arrived,to my horror,no need to queue!!

haha..long queue for cheap discounts is what in my expectation.

mostly,it's because of 4.30pm like that is office hour,only student-looking customers sitting inside.

we got our ideal box n settled down,waiting for our driver friend who need to park her car in carpark...

we eat and eat,eat and eat....haha...we tried a lot of sushi.personally,i ate about 5 prawn-sushi.deep fried and Tempura one.besides,we tried some new items.one is with a fried scallop on the rice.it is super tantalising.crispy!!it is cooked,so it tastes a bit different after eating raw one...the other one is royal crab sushi.the crab is so complete in shape n in a length of my index finger.however,it doesn't have enough taste of a crab.of course,better than the crabmeat(processed one)sushi.

4 of us,only me,who eat wasabi.2 just dip with soya sauce only.the other one eat with CHILI POWDER!!!!!haha...

we were waiting for UNAGI.grilled eel.tell you,it's expensive one.normal price is RM5 per plate.(2 pieces/plate)

first 2 plates on the belt are grabbed by the table in front,some teenage girls la...

we actually saw that coming on the moving belt already.but they took away.obviously,Unagi is everyone's favorita!!

we continued to wait.finally,we saw some coming again.haha...we took all...we grabbed 4 plates of Unagi.each person get to eat 2 pieces.we really enjoyed the meal.

after 2 hours,we settled for bill.

total up,36 plates of sushi.(forgotten to take photos as eveidence leh....)we counted the actual price before footing the bill,without discount one,it ended up to be Rm 160++.thanks God that we are able to enjoy the promotion.so,the actual bill is only costs about RM60++.so,each person RM 22.70 including tax.haha...

so so so so happy that day.to all of us,the best thing is we do not need to eat cafeteria food. XD

after sushi,we went to shopping.Padini Authenthics got discounts up to 70% till 22nd of april.i bought a bag(again)...5o% off!!keke...now,waiting for my PDI member's Birthday Discount! 30% off for everything.for 1 month i can enjoy the offer.hope it is the correct season of trend,if not,nothing is going to be on my list...wasted pulak~

New from Me

in Batu Lancang KFC.within walking distance,just to eat fried chicken

in his car,with his Fila on my head...on the way to Alor Star Mall...haha...long time no see,should give him an ugly look,so that he can remember me all the time mah...

after penang bowling,on the street near E&O hotel.whole street of pubs.quite nice.westerners all...my first cap.PDI.RM 39.90. peach

during chinese new year time.new sunglasses.on the way to Sungai Petani,i think...so miss my family members right now!!

this is me.a 'cannot-smile-face'...it's because by that time,my teeth not yet 'tampal',got hole,so cannot show!! haha XD

In the Power of Love

the power of love can change a person, a couple, a family, a society, a nation and the world.

but,
what is the real facet of love?

love is never blind.
shouldn't be...
mustn't be...

love is not only about 2 person,
1 boy,1 girl;
1 man and 1 woman...

love is about 2 families
of both parties
supports,full supports,encouragements,guidances,strong bond...

love takes time...
from acquaintance
to marriage.

the destination of 2 persons in love is the covenant of marriage.

love brings pain besides joy.
love hurts...
whether have it or not

true love

i wonder what is true love.
recently,i'm thinking...

love is without any reason.

"if i got reason to love u,then i got reason to leave u"

"if u love me,u wont doubt me."

love is never and shouldn't be blind.

"if reli 1 day,i got a real love,will u happy for me?"

"me always there for u,guide u,lead u,support u."

"i don wan change. i wan u noe who i am in the future,i don wan u c good habit but after marry,u c my bad habit,i don wan. i wan u c good n bad habit."

"when there a threat,i hope u with me there to go thru the threat not leaving me alone."

"i like to see ur smile n laugh. melt my heart..."



what love could turn to be? will love hurt? will the heart ache? will the tears drop?

this is 'him'--june born

JUNE
· Shyness
· Fun to be with.
· Loves to try new things.
· Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott.
· Secretive.
· Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
· Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself.
· Has reputation.
· Easily consoled.
· Honest.
· Concerned about people's feelings.
· Tactful.
· Friendly. . Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt.
· Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.
· Not revengeful.
· Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally.
· Sensitive and forms impressions carefully.
· Caring and loving.
· Treats others equally.
· Strong sense of sympathy.
· Wary and sharp.
· Judges people through observations.
· Hardworking.
· No difficulties in studying.
· Loves to be alone.
· Always broods about the past and the old friends.
· Waits for friends. Never looks for friends.
· Not aggressive unless provoked.
· Loves to be loved.
· Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

i got to do so...

I feel so sorry to you. I need to do that to you for your own good. I got to ‘hurt’ you sometimes. I don’t mean to. I just got to.
You can’t move. You can’t talk, complain, and cry….I just heard your voice, indicating “no, no…no, no…”
I know that the sodium bicarbonate is uneasy in your oral cavity. It must be very awful, as what my C.I said. The taste of it must be unbearable. But, you need it. You need sodium bicarb. to remove those sordes. Or else, bacteria will start growing within. I’m sorry for you. I knew that I hurt you a few times. I attempted to pull your chin downwards to open your mouth. For some reason, it couldn’t happen.
You are on tube to breathe and eat. You need some water-filled gloves to put under the pressured area to relieve pressure and to prevent ulceration from occurring. I hope you can relieve from pain, sufferings. I hope you can live healthily and a longer life on earth. You are cute. You smiled when we co-corporately pulled you up to the head of the bed with draw sheet, and put you in Fowler’s position. You smile. However, when I saw you suck the sodium bicarb, I felt so sad. I felt like stop doing the procedures. But you need it for hygienic concerns.
I got to do so.

a letter for u

Hey, my dear, how hav u been? How’s ur life there? Is it not happy? Does u feel lonely? Is emptiness filling up ur cup instead of contentment? Does u have pressure for ur study? U got a praiseworthy result for ur first test in school… u should bear in mind what u r pursuing, what u want ur life to be…u feel lonely coz u don have true friends around? U knows, friends just don’t come by it. U needs to follow the ‘ship.’ Conquer the waves…don change urself, to get along wif people, to mix around. You are who you are. A unique u. u r special. U r one of a kind among all God’s creation. We might not be able to understand what God has for us. Yes, although people around u might not be able to see-through ur heart, ur thoughts, ur despair, ur feeling…but, stay strong. Don’t live for others. Live for urself. Live for God’s sake. For His Glory. Life is never meant to be easy. Life is akin to the labyrinth in the deep jungle. U will never be able to predict what lay ahead. Protruding roots, hanging rattan, descending huge branches, wet, soggy path…what more u can predict what is lying above for u. who noe that there’s a new shiny sky is meant for u. it’s just above ur canopy. The sun shines on u. the light peep through the canopy of leaves and cast on ur head.
Don’t sad. Don’t cry. God is always leading u. when u r tired, restless and exhausted; He is going to carry u, to walk through the high n low. U will never b left alone in the corner. U will always have a real best friend wif u. never change, never die. Transcend above, immortal, never ever change since yesterday, today and tomorrow…