Student's working life that I'm in.

Supposedly, working is a fun for some of you. No rules, no exam, no burning midnight oil and earn money for own shopping!

I am working on shift now, but yet I feel so sad waking up every morning to get ready for work. I know I know. I got you- I should be thankful if I can wake up for a new day and see the sun and not *dut dut* (Anyway, I don't see sun if I work morning shift. I wake up earlier than the sun.)

With great power comes great responsibilities. My power is now a student going thru management practice. My power is to help me learn how to be a SRN in future (4 months later).

I want to talk about my preceptor.

My preceptor is a pretty and cool one. Think ChiLing (Taiwanese model) that never simply smile. I guess she's just 24 like that. Maybe she study Diploma right after her SPM. Her only bad is she likes to tease us. Everyone knew that if work with her before. I knew that since very junior. She was and still is, very fierce if she wants to. Maybe she choose people. Some treated with 24-7 fierce and bad attitude where some treated with a certain dosage of mercy and kindness. I think I am the latter one. Sometimes, she scolded me harshly and sometimes, too good to be true.

My friend actually thought I would be damn low and damn sad when she was about to tell me that this particular person is going to be my preceptor. At least, by my friend's opinion, she's not approachable. What more teaching you from A to Z. ANyway, I gave my friend a shock when I responded the other way round.

I remembered how my face looks like on hearing that news. I was very happy. I know at least, she has a soft side to me! So, I made my friend in shock and stared at me blankly.

My preceptor is very efficient, fast and furious yet make no mistakes, with good anticipations and smart at works. Too good to be true. But like I said, she still scold me harshly. A few times, I almost want to burst into tears. But I manage to hold my tears inside the shallow lower eyelids. Myself, my performance is definitely fall below her expectations. I- am just not as best as her.

In our life, you might meet some people that no matter how much bad things they do to you, how many litres of tears you cry because of them, you still respect and salute them. Now I met one.

I hope you read this, dear preceptor. Please give me and Sze some time. Not just one week. One week is not enough. MAYBE at the end of it, still not enough. But we never give up learning new things and put them into practice. We always try hard and work very hard. Until we feel so pressure stepping into the ward. Sorry if we can never meet your standards even after we try so hard to be like you. I know I will cry one day. Sooner or later.

Because never in my life, someone scold me harshly like you *sobsob*