Enjoy the waiting. Boarding soon.

21.5.1988

21.5.2009------ 21 years old!

Couldn't express myself at this moment! I have a great feeling. Great due of feelings and.....erm.... thoughts (?!) before I spend my last day of being 20. And therefore, I want to blog it. I want to keep a record of it. I want to put in words, for all those anticipations, excitement and worrying(aging,people)! So I asked 'someone' how to start up the story.

cecilia says: ya lo after call u,left 4 cents nia! hmmm wat i need to tell throughout tis 1 year? how i need to bring up d story?

edwin says: 21st may...my birthday...which incidentaly i am 21 years old also...that mean casino legal age in malaysia........ gosh...cant believe i am 21...a human's mind is a special and complicated thing...one year can add up a lot of experience,life lesson to a person........ blah blah blah...as a start... hahahaha

cecilia says: haha y everyone must talk about casino legal age


Of course, who never learn in a year of time. Man, that's long. I went through a lot throughout this year. Hundreds over days, I went through high and low of life, like a roller- coaster. I went through stresses, gossips that almost killed me, broken relationship that rendered me lonely and despair, found out the importance of good interpersonal relationship, leadership, communication, stress management and so on.

After my 20th, I had my semester 4- the last semester of my 2nd year. And I did quite alright. I had my experiences in nursery, labour room, community health nursing, communicable disease control (CDC). And this year, I had my time in OT, school health nursing, research...... Everything taught me something. I wished I never need to go through all of them but I am thankful for I've completing my journey, gone through all those experiences. Some taught me to be strong. Some tells me there's time for everything assigned. And man, can never play God. And I need to accept or maybe tolerate what people want to talk about me. Let them scold me and keep quiet and try to think rationally and analyse myself.

There're a lot of moments when I felt so regret, so cold, so depressed for being where I am now.
There're a lot of time when I truly appreciate my family, my parents, my family background and upbringing! I wish I can provide them a home here in Penang, pay for their travelings. Let my dad go to Taiwan again. Let my mom go to Europe... And all these contributing factors motivate me to study hard, work hard, learn hard and secure a good position in life. I told myself many times that I want to earn well. Or else dreams will still a dream even though you are awake.

*lol, why sounds so emo this post?

hmmm...
I just got phone call from Mul. Before that I have someone sang me birthday song! Yeah! And I am happy that someone is with me for this important day. Someone trust me that I am accountable and reliable when he needs me no matter what. This encourages me a lot. It inspires me to be a better one.

Ok, happy one. I hope I will enjoy my new mile. Enjoy boarding the adulthood. Have a meaningful time, all the time. Be a good girl! More mature. More stable.

Happy Birthday, Cel cel!

*thank you sweetie for celebrating birthday 5 days ahead. for your time and energy. for your presents. thank you for talking with me everyday! teach me a lot of new things! thank you! XD