Twenty 20

The 21st of May for each year is a day of I highly anticipate it. Very much eager for it to arrive but very stress for it to accept the fact of being older......

May girls-hooi lin,pey wen,mun yu & me! 15-18-21-24;all 3-day difference nia.(hmmm...12th is someone else's.hope he has Happy Birthday also =D )

I was quite sad as I really couldn't accept that I am going to be 20. I couldn't remember how did i feel when i turning into 10, 10 years ago...perhaps at that moment, i just thought of growing up must be a great and happy thing. Now, as i grow older, I'm more afraid of growing older...
Going to 20, I was celebrating it with other May-girls in college hostel, receiving many gifts and wishes. On that day, I watch "The Chronicles of Narnia-Prince Caspian", ate crab meat 'mian xian hu'...
I still remember, the beginning and the end of the night of the day. I knew that I was waiting for something. Something that I can only dream of it. At last, I realised that I should not ask for something that is not meant for me.
Celebrating the end of this semester, all the Terminal-Exam-stress and my big day, I bought myself a big gift which can carry me a long way.

OoOoOoOo...my cool blackie! new asset!

Of course, I didn't forget to ask for blessings for life ahead from God. Everything has its time to come and I'm still so alone. Well, alone and lonely is actually not related. Being alone is not necessary lonely. But for my big day, I had great sense of disappointing and grief. Although I have friends who tried to help make my day special, I cherished them but I guess there's something I want and I miss it...or I just don't need it,yet.