Different now

It's sunday. and I'm at home now.

4 weeks ago, I was at home too. I had crab when I came home that time. Similar with this week. And for some reason, I starts to have no appetite with crabs, eating at home.

Well, 3 weeks ago, I was here too. Passby when coming back from Padang Besar.

Yesterday, when I reached, I was...hmm...having range of emotions in me. Saturday night is no longer the same like last 6 months.
It's like that. I can get used with new thing fast. Could turn to be habitual sometimes. But to back to original state, I have hard time. Sometimes, even couldn't back to original. Sometimes, you may forgottten who was you.

I had case study presentation yesterday, before I came home. I was sad. I didn't notice mistakes. I told myself why not blame the others or find out who did the part. I rationalised my saddening event myself. I was too rely on the person who type out the slides; the person was too rely on me to check her works. One rely on each others. Whose fault? Is trust a problem?
Worse still, some people are just waiting for a chance to shout out your mistakes. That's not so big deal. Again, I said. The big deal is copying bulat-bulat, exactly copy and paste issue.

Everyone has own standard.

Years ago, I read Amy Cheong's book. She said, some men claimed that they are PERFECTIONISTS. Amy said, recheck what they said. It may mean something else. Maybe they expect perfects in them. Or, these men expect a perfectionist woman.

Silly are thou who believe in perfections.

I came home, I had surprises. Again, sudden surprises give you different feelings.
First, mul. You know Melanie jie jie had given birth to a baby boy, Jireh Ngu. Last night in youth was a celebration for full moon. Photos later.

Second, met with youths. Many had came back to Malaysia. Some married. Some had a year of working experience in Genting. MAny many. And, I heard that Alor Star mall has cineplex. I very beh tahan...
I cannot stand. So many updates in 3 hours.

I, also met with someone. Argh. Changed a lot. No longer look good as in old days. Ok, like I said. Everyone, own standard.

Another different thing I found out. Someone can be just so stable and cool in reality although in her heart, her mind is thundering and in rage. This kind of personality is not good in expressing herself. It's so introvert. But in some other world, living with anonymousity or atmosphere of another, can daringly express herself. But still, express with a limit as well. The leftover remnants are still stored inside her fridge-mind.