I am not narcissistic. Trust me.

Christmas is coming~ ho ho ho...


In the gallery. Oh yeah~


I am just too free to play this. and too reluctant to start study. Am always heating up my laptop for many hours a day.

Got a kind sms from Anthony (KL). Ask me to see the moon smiles. I thought it's another prank until Ed told me and showed me the picture. I immediately I went out and walk around the hostel to look for a moon. First time in my life.Too bad the sky wasn't clear above Penang island. Even stars hide behind thick clouds. Rain is coming, I think. I've never lie under the sky to watch stars. Starry night means nothing to me in my past. It was like another night that would give you lots of mosquitoes bites. Snake hisses and bitten my old neighbour friend last time. That was shock of my life. I was still so young. Couldn't imagine why adult said poisonous are those snakes with triangular head.

From a narcissism I want to talk about memory loss.
Anyone can understand this? Things/ details about your important events, you may not be able to keep them in your mind fresh, may not be able to defeat the fact of aging.
There were times when I couldn't recall a lot of old history. I thought those were so so important and critical for the rest of my life. I thought I would remember all the special dates, unique conversation, impressive activities did together. I thought I would remember them forever. But at this point of life, I have lost some parts and bits of memory puzzle. Some remains as silhouette. Some are broken. Some are torn from mental diaries.
The same things are happening now I believe. She/ He might be your biggest/ hate-st enemy now. But in future 1 year, 2, 5 years or even 10 years later. Do you think you can still remember how did he treat you/ how he harm you and everything?
We always said we'll hate some people until we die, couldn't forget how they look like even their features are destroyed. Today, keep this in mind. Keep it with you. Some one knock you on the floor or just merely bombard you with many F** words, give you middle finger. But would you want to carry the emotions to the extent of allowing the issue to affect your whole well-being today. Remembering all is not necessary anymore. It's tired for those in anger only.