My B-G-R

Someone asked me a question.
“Will you be with him?” something like that.
“No lah, impossible lah…” I replied.
For long, long time, I think, I haven’t been in love with anyone. I didn’t give myself some time to think about this. Until recently, the little seed started to grow in my heart. It’s just a simple feeling. Not deep. Something likes admiration. That’s it. I’m rational, still. Not moved. But I guess, this guy must not from God ‘lah’…whatever it is, just let it be. No big deal. I still can control and prevent the outbreak! My currently biggest motivation is sustaining my result, improving, excelling, and being the top 3?!
I have a long list of attributes of my bf. Of course, those are my personal one. From own opinions. And whenever I ‘pattor/ pak tor’, I would consider him as my life-long partner. ‘cause I see no point why a worthwhile relationship cannot be committed by marriage, bonded forever. Pity those people, who need to suffer the pain when another said,
“Sorry, I can’t marry you. I don’t want marriage…”
My bf-list is as following:-
• Christian, committed in servings. Put GOD 1st!!!!
• Educated + maturity
• From a good family background, Christian family (hmmm, better!)
• I don’t like eldest son, sure very ‘big man’. ‘da nan ren!’ youngest also cannot! Sure very manja. Too manja is not that lovely and adorable. Very tiring to ‘pujuk’ lah… but sometimes manja is CUTE and make my heart soft~~*LOL*
• Respect my family members for who they are! Care for them, have HEART for them!
• Has high ambition, achievable, possible dreams. Should he be in medical line? Pros and cons lah…
• See the importance and rights of ladies in the world! But no mummy’s boys! I cannot tahan if my bf keeps on comparing me to his beloved mom. I sure lose! Kalah cham cham! Even I don’t know how to cook, I won’t be blamed!
• Knowledgeable! Make sure you know what to do when flood comes, when car breaks down, when the chair has a cracking sound, when we buy a new set of DIY racks, WHEN I ANGRY/SAD/ ‘MERAJUK’/ ‘MANJA’…knows where to get best educations for kids, which car is better, which bank has highest interests…( my dad and my uncle in my family know all these, so don’t point the finger at me, ok?) oh ya, know what to do when the laptop hang/ attacked by virus!
• Willing to make a calendar for special dates/ days. E.g.: our anniversary, my parents’ birthday, his parents’ birthday, my birthday, his birthday, my sisters’ birthday, his siblings’ birthday and etc…
• Have good relationship with his own family. If not good, then how could I expect him to be good with my family!?
• Must not be tired of creating romance! And when I take the first step to be romantic, know the importance of appreciation~~~ *giggle*
• Spend time with me and both families together.
• Watch movies in couple seat in cinema. Hold hands in public, everywhere.
• Allow me to choose what I want from the menu, but when I say ‘anything’, know to choose something and ask me again, whether I’m ok with it or not…
• Give me freedom, my own time to hang out with my friends.
• Eat anything. Cheap or expensive. Luxurious or simple. Able to cook, better!
• Has a good sense of taste in everything~
• Allow me to speak. Respect my opinions. But when you think I’m not so right, say it in a nice way to protect me from getting hurt emotionally…
• Always walk side-by-side. Walk in front of me, to get me something, to open the door, to get a car…chair-pulling? Hmmm, I might not get used with this European culture.
• Bring me out; introduce me to his good buddies! Must not be ashamed to do that oh!
• Even though I put on weight, still love me deeply, truly, madly!!! *LOL*
• When quarrels, must cool down in an hour time! Then sit down to solve problems ASAP. Must not lay hands on me! Strongly against violence!
• He must have a strong will to be with me forever. Mustn’t give up easily!
• We must have similarities and severe differences as well! Be complete in God!
• Go to church together
• Pray every night together!
• Share together everything! Happy and sad things!
• Worship together!
• Able to play me songs.
• Able to appreciate time of silence. Speechless is not necessary equal to communication breakdown!

I guess for the time being, it’s enough lah…I’m not in rush to get married! *haha* I need time to understand, meet more people, expanding my social group, learn more things, see more things. Sometimes, not being in a relationship is really care-free! More freedom and time for self and for God. Why restrict yourself with early, immature, childish commitment? Why don’t give yourself more choices to choose? More time to consider.